Forgetting My Own Advice

Since around this time last month, my posting has been in decline. Certainly in volume and I would suggest possibly quality, too. Now part of that I have to acknowledge as being general life rearing it’s head. It has been a bit of a tough time for the family at large and that has taken some time.

But it isn’t just that. Part of it has been a change in the way I think about posts. About what they ‘should’ be. But this wasn’t a conscious decision or change in thinking. It just sort of… Slipped in there, somewhere along the way, between now and Blaugust.

Heck, even as I sit here writing this I’m still trying to string together the thoughts around exactly what it is I changed.

At first I thought it was just about identifying topics to actually write about. But I don’t think that’s it. Not entirely. I have been bad about actually keeping track of ideas as they come. But it’s more than just that. More even than simply missing the time I might have otherwise dedicated to writing.

Alright, I’m circling. What I think I lost somewhere along the way though is being content with simply… talking. Having a conversation. Even if it is by power of the media a relatively one way conversation during this phase.

Somewhere along the way, I managed to get hung up in the thinking that a post had to ‘be’ something. There had to be a point or purpose. Some insight. Some…thing.

The Elder Scrolls Online: Despite being on the goals list this month, I’ve hardly touched it. Oops.

It’s not that I don’t see value in posting that way. There absolutely is. The problem is that I started to unconsciously see no value in posting more conversationally, this way.

I don’t know why, or how these feelings were shaped or where they came from. Particularly in light of the fact I still enjoyed reading such posts. Sometimes far moreso than than the posts-with-a-point I’d come to, for some reason, expect of myself to the exclusion of all else.

The mind is a wonderful thing, eh?

I suppose if I was to add a ‘point’ to this post it would be to serve as a reminder to myself and whoever else might need it that posts don’t necessarily need to have a point. (OK… Conflicting message there. I see it. ;))

You know — I now have a theory on why this happened. A year on from having started back here, I’m still very much looking to discover / develop my own writer’s voice. I haven’t quite got there yet. And looking back, I’m now amazed I thought it might return by the second month. Hah. Silly Nait. So naive. Anywho! I think perhaps in my pursuit of this, I’m frequently shifting up approaches to posting here.

The only constant is to just keep trying. But perhaps when something doesn’t immediately provide the results I’m after, knowingly or not, I move on to something else.

Maybe that’s why. Whether it is or isn’t though, this style is something I’d like to bring back and play with a little more.

Naithin

Gamer, reader, writer, husband and father of two boys. Former WoW and Gaming blogger, making a return to the fold to share my love of all things looty.

9 Responses

  1. Rakuno says:

    I suffer from pretty much the same problem which is why my posts tend to be so infrequent and random. Most of the time my posts tend to come from ideas I pick from someone else. But when that is not the case I need to remind myself that even a more conversational approach is fine, that I do have something interesting to say or that I’d like to be able to remember later on.

    Blogging consistently is hard no matter what is your motivation for writing. :p

    • Naithin says:

      Blogging consistently is hard no matter what is your motivation for writing.

      Hah. Yes. Yes it is.

      I like your point around it being enough to simply be a thing you would like to remember later on, too. Heck, this very thing *is* my motivation for posting consistently. But I know I miss a lot of opportunities for this, so perhaps re-remembering the fact it’s OK to just write and let it be will help miss less of these.

  2. Isey says:

    I pretty much only post conversational style! Check out my last ramblings, the post was literally created as I was thinking. Which, yeah, admittedly leads to a pretty wonky post. But it’s an honest one of natural flow (at least). Kind of like this reply…

    I always imagined the blog as a bar-style place to chat, challenge each other and share dreams, thoughts, and ideas.

    • Bhagpuss says:

      The bar analogy works for me. I spent many, many years in pubs and bars and cafes and parties talking endlessly about everything and nothing to friends, acquaintances and antagonists. We argued and monologued and critiqued and rambled and generally never shut up for a goddam minute. Sometimes some seriously structured analysis came out of it and sometimes (often) a load of nonsense. Sometimes people had a point to make and sometimes they just wanted to hear themeselves talk.

      I don’t go to pubs or bars much any more. I barely even drink. Blogging is an amazing asynchronous alternative. My advice would be to just keep banging stuff out. If you have a Great Notion then work it up, by all means. But if you don’t then just chat. Chatting is always good.

      • Naithin says:

        Yes. Yes to all this. :)

        It has been a bit of an interesting re-realisation though. For a while I had been feeling something was a bit off and somewhat different to shortly after I started back.

        But it was a dim, vague sort of thing.

        Coming back to this understanding is carrying a form of joy with it though. The weight of something being off lifted to some extent. :)

  3. Frostilyte says:

    For what it’s worth I needed to read this.

    I’ve spent weeks sitting on a post about Slay the Spire because I’ve been trying to figure out “the point” of the post. I generally only allow myself two post yearly that are entirely nebulous, but even those have a format and intention (self reflection). I just…don’t know that I can just write. :|

    As it stands I’m a month overdue on trying to write that post so I was going to just bin it and begin on the next thing. Maybe I just need to…write. Even if the result is garbage just writing will yield some kind of progress instead of having the idea be stuck in my head would be good.

    • Naithin says:

      Writing (and I would argue publishing) is better than not writing (and publishing), I think. And perhaps that too, was something I was allowing myself to forget. Absolutely time pressures played a role, but if I allowed it to, that could easily have just become an excuse.

      Still, I hear you. Even on this one I ultimately ended up retrofitting a point to it. xD

      I wonder if it might help to consider the ‘point’ of the StS post to simply regale us with your experience. To convey what you felt and thought as you went through it.

      My initial ‘point’ to this post was simply to post, acknowledging an issue that I’d only become consciously aware of earlier in the evening! And I think despite everything, even if the second point hadn’t emerged, I would’ve been OK with that at least.

      • Frostilyte says:

        Sound advice. Though with there being almost a month between when I last played the game and now I dunno if I’ll be able to bang that out. Might be easier to plow through that one I wanted to do about Yakuza 0 which I’m only 2 weeks out from…

        Or I could complain about Monster Hunter World: Iceborne, which I’ve put over 100 hours into over the past 2 weeks and get called a contrarian. I mean what? I don’t have any controversial opinions on the universally praised expansion for a game I put over six hundred hours into. No sir. Not me. I’m a good little blogger.

        • Naithin says:

          Haha, I for one would love to hear your thoughts on MHW, contrarian or not. (And contrarian especially if they involve complaint about just how damn aggressive and fast some of the bloody mobs are. Haha.)

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